Be a good husband for my future wife

I was wondering, why when I saw a video of someone who approachs a girl and get their number, I felt so much envy.

Also, when some guys bragging on the internet about their chicks, I felt the same way.

I don't know why, was it a jealousy? Was I jealous to them?

All I could say is, I felt like I can do it, I can be one of them, but I'm wasted my time and my money as well. Context for you guys who don't know, several years ago I was really a simp. I didn't know how to approach a girl or how to make a good relationship with them. Then, I decided to join several classes about dating. Starting from free to paid. Thanks to those classes, my mindset about relationships has improved a lot. Now I can face a love with logical point of view.

Problem happened when I decided to stop. I felt enough about this relationship junkies and started to focus on something else. However, when I decided to stop I hadn't reached a level that could be called as a good standard for those classes. I still don't know how to approach a girl nor how to bring them to bed. Those are the standard of a guy who all girls are wanted.

Whenever I'm facing with the situation like I wanted to talk to a cute stranger, I can't because I'm lacking in skill. On the other hand, I feel like I don't need to follow their standard. I DONT WANT TO BE BASTARD! For me, be a good husband for my future wife, is my own standard.

So, I think that is the answer. I think I need to make some adjustments. Make my own standard, clear all the distractions and focus only on it!