Weird Feeling

I don't know why, but when I meet and talk with a girl (any girl, especially a cute one, of course), I feel so happy. It feels like I want to be there forever, want to chat with them always.

This is a weird feeling because as far as I know, I already had a happy life alone on my own. I didn't have any problems live as a single so far. On the contrary, it's truly blessing and also liberating.

But why, why do I have this feeling right now? Am I actually deep down that lonely? Was I just denial back then? What is happening to me?

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After a few minutes of contemplating, finally now I found the answer already. It's normal that I felt that way. It's been so long since the last time I was in relationship with someone. That's why a small care from opposite gender would attract my attention and my own feeling. All I need to do now is to control that feeling. By control I mean embrace the feeling. Like what we've been taking about lately. 

I realize that those feelings are also feeling. Which it has the same ability to destruct me if I didn't take care of it carefully. It's okay to feel that way. It's normal, absolutely. The more you try to resist, the more it will get bigger. All you need is to accept it, embrace it, then it will go peacefully. Like any other feelings. They come and go.