Mad

Yesterday I made two bad things now I know I should've done this, or there might be a better way to deal with. First, in the morning, I woke up, went to the bathroom, and I saw my dad in the kitchen. He was asking for cigarettes, which in the first ask, I answered nothing. Then, he patted on my shoulder, I yelled at him.

Then, my thought was like, "Didn't he know that I just got fired from the job, how could he ask for that?" Now, objectively I could say, he might not know. And I have no right to yell to him or to anyone.

Later, still the same day, on the afternoon, I had a talk with a friend of mine. First it went normal, untill he hit my head. Back then, he did several things to me. But not my head, just by body. The hit didn't hurt that much, but my ego couldn't let him to survive. I went out with anger.

Lesson learned: when I deal with this same situation later, I have to consider to take this battle with calm and relax mind. Clear any egos that could prevent me from getting things done. And talk or criticize them in a very warm and friendly manner. But what if they don't respond you nicely? Well, that's not our problem. We have no power to control anyone but ourselves.